Sounds to me like you need to reexamine your priorities in life. IMO, get multiple jobs, get a place to stay, and start a real plan for saving some money. If you spend your time gaming and don't ever save anything, you'll never be in a better position. You have to realize that though, nothing any of us say will help unless you have the maturity to actually realize that surviving more than paycheck to paycheck will take some work.

I agree with Kanti on this, you need to examine your own life, and see just how much further your willing to go down before you look up. You think you have a hard life, let me tell you my life growing up, so you understand that your not the only one that got a bad life to start with.
 
I grew up in a broken home, my father liked to throw furniture at me and my brother and sister. My mom was an emotional train wreck. The money my dad made went into booze, we borrowed money to make ends meet even though he was making 30 dollars an hour and working 50 hours a week, we didn't have money. From 1996-1999 I ate beans, just beans everyday breakfast, lunch and dinner, we couldn't afford anything else, because booze mattered more. 
 
I got the internet in 98, and I made that my life, I was in chatrooms all the time, that was my escape from life, and it was a good life or so i thought. My life fell apart around me, I failed my class's and eventully dropped out, id rather sit online and talk about why I didnt wash my clothing than attend school. I ditched my friend in real life for a chat room and lost him. I stole from another friend to replace my video card so i could game. This is addiction. You know i could blame my family, I could blame my life, I could blame god, I could blame anyone for this. 
 
What happened to get me out of this was in 2007 I woke up one day, living in the bed of my truck in the middle of the Arizona Desert, no job, no phone, no friends, and my family 1200 miles away in Texas. That day I swallowed my pride and stood in a work line, i called my mom from a payphone and apologized for everything I had done, i swallowed my pride and my ego, and asked for forgivness for what I had done to her. 
 
My life has been for the most part happier, I made my circumstances, No i couldn't control my fathers drinking, but I could have seeked other options, even as a child, It was my choice to become addicted to gaming and the internet. And that addiction took me the lowest point of my life, I had nothing, and might I add that truck wasn't mine, it was an old heap parked there in the desert. I lost it all, and I hope you don't have to loose everything to realize that your on a path that leads no where.
 
You know no matter what has happened, Id bet if you called your mom and tried to make peace, honestly tried to make peace and apologized to her, she will forgive you and drop things. We are your friends, the people in the world don't know you, but your mom will always be your mom, no matter what you do or say, she is your mom, so swallow your pride and get on your knees and apologize to her, and ask her for guidance, ask her to help you out. And you know what the day you swallow your pride and admit that in many ways your still a child is the first step to becoming an adult.

 
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that isn't your moms fault, running around a house naked after u turn about 10 is inappropriate no matter the reason, you should have worn a towel its that simple. 

 
That's what your taught, illogical, but it's what your taught. If you were taught otherwise, you would know no difference.

^what this guy said.
 
WARNING, wall of text below is me speaking my mind. You wanna say something? PM me.
 
Oh and Halo, get two jobs? Hahahahah, IF i get ONE job i'll be damned happy. Minimum wage though? not gonna cut it, can't live on that, and i'll be darned if i'ma stick around here. Sure i'll take a m.wage job, if I ever got offered one, but when your putting in apps and applying for jobs in columbus (i'm from canton, two hour drive one way) and still unemployed, yeah no thanks.
 
I love how a lot of guys think it's all Roses and bubble gum. Friend of mine has a master in three degrees, still looking for a job. I called a place three times in one month asking about an application I put in in, third call they threatened to press charges for harassment if I called again. I have to my name a bed a desk and my PC, a few little extras but otherwise, ha! Sure I could sell what i have left, I mean I used to have enough stuff to furnish an apartment. Couch, dishes, entertainment center, blah blah blah...
 
Can only take so much before you just say forget it.... So fran, I know your not much for ignoring haters, but you don't have to explain yourself to anyone anyway, and you don't have to defend yourself. I know where you are in life and I feel you. My struggles may not = yours but they are similar, so your not alone, and I'm sure you already knew that. I myself feel the only way i'll make anything of myself anymore is far from where I am now.

Social on the internet not the same as social in life lol

Lol, kanti, I'd turn u down anyway.

If you were not a transgender you could of joined the military. I know you can join the military now if your gay. All I got to say is if you fail the ASVAB your DUMB!!! That test is soooooo easy to pass to get in the military. It has 8th grade math, science and reading on it. You have to get a 31 to pass which is like a D-. Shoot, you get points for even writing your name lol.

Just to input two cents. I can understand needing some internet access for work, but being ok with fulfilling an addiction that is blinding you from taking care of your priorities to the point that your own security is at risk is just plain asinine.
 
I fulfill plenty of my hobbies, definitely. Some of which are detrimental to my finances, but they are finances I have set aside to burn.
 
I always make sure my bills are paid well before I preorder anime figures. That's just common sense.

franbunnyffxii
Im really not worried about my addiction as it is right now. I dont mind being addicted, gives me soemthing to do and to focus on.
Im  worried about my job and getting recontracted at the end of august.
Im worried about finding a place to live, THANK THE STARS they arent making me stay in a mens shelter. -shivers-

If i dont get recontracted im going to end up having an aweful hard time finding a job since background checks are so easy to do. Thanks mom for screwing me over in life!

Might want to reverse that mode of thinking. Focus on your job and finding a place to live. Worry about being addicted to internet games later. Life will screw you with or without your family or friends involvement.......just need to learn to be on the giving end and not the receiving end of it.

Is this "guy" around the age of 13 or so?
 
Seriously... You make it sound like gangwars in the park with waterballon fights haha. Is that how the Bloods and Crips are fighting nowadays, with waterballons? 

Also honestly, sometimes you gotta cut your losses Fran.
 
You got a "gaming addiction" but living on the streets. Well if that laptop is worth alot. Then sell it, and buyer a cheaper laptop (Even a $200 one), just to stay in touch with the interwebs, and use all that extra money to get yourself back on your feet.
 
Not trying to be rude, but it's the cold, hard truth. For instance, I LOVED my rig, but I had to sell it last month, so I could get my truck going again. I could've been whatever, and said I WILL NOT sell my rig, but then I'd still be without a truck. So sometimes in life, you gotta give up things to get other things better. It sucks, I know, but it's life.

HAZMAN_THE_GREAT

If you were not a transgender you could of joined the military. I know you can join the military now if your gay. All I got to say is if you fail the ASVAB your DUMB!!! That test is soooooo easy to pass to get in the military. It has 8th grade math, science and reading on it. You have to get a 31 to pass which is like a D-. Shoot, you get points for even writing your name lol.

I scored an 81 on the Asvab, a friend outted me while i was in the army.
Before they kicked me out i was getting ready to be sent to AIT for the 2nd time for a 68series MOS(medical series) The unit i was going to be transfering to wanted to put me into 68X for garrison detail because they already had enough combat ready and critical MOS but needed to re-staff the medical battallion.
However my privious unit's command was full of mysoginistic jerks. NO ONE in the lower enlisted had any issue with me being transgender at all. PROBABLY because one of the guys saw a folder on my laptop during down time at annual training that was filled with ermm.... "suggestive pictures" if you know what im getting at, followed by "hey guys check out [my last name]'s porn folder!" Embarassing moment but hey who doesnt have porn on their laptop/computer?

The whole unit knew after a few weeks and no one i was required to be around even cared, but command did and they didnt even know me. they didnt care i had one of the highest PT scores in the unit, they didnt care i was the 3rd fastest runner in the entire HHB, they didnt give a flip about my 29/40 with a jammed weapon, they didnt care that i had a critical MOS, they didnt care. They wanted me out because of prejudice.
Because if youre not a heterosexual male theres a massive bias agaisnt you in the Army. no matter how useful a soldier you were.
I loved being in the army, it was awesome, I was estatic to be deployed and do a tour of duty over seas.

Yeah it sucks, but you've gotta keep your personal life personal.  It's a tough balance between being business only yet offering enough personality to be friendly and personable at work.  Too much info and you get hosed, and too little people hate you for being a robotic jerk.  If I opened my locker at work and a sexy photo was plastered to the inside and a co worker saw it I'd be done.  Not only would I have been fired, but I'd get hit with a sexual harassment suit.
 
I kept things professional 99% of the time, but ended up getting fired when one of my bosses found out I was with two girls at the same time.  It happens to the best of us.
 
 
 
 

So, I randomly came across this thread and I decided to give it a read.
 
I actually have a friend that's a transgender and serving in the military so, I vehemently disagree that you (Fran) actually looked into help or answers, at all.
 
Via google in the last 30 seconds I came across this: http://www.sldn.org/pages/transgender-people-and-military-service
 
And at the bottom:
 Any transgender individual with questions about military service or who is being harassed or is under investigation based on his or her status as transgender should contact SLDN by either calling (202.328.3244, ext. 100) or emailing (legal@sldn.org) to schedule an appointment with one of our legal staff.
 
In contacting my friend, they actually challenged his status and he won...In fact, most do win.
 
So, quite frankly and not to be rude but, there were other options at the time of your discharge.
 
Also, if you were discharged for prejudice it would've been very easy to call GLAAD and have had a million plus people on your side by the time you hung up the phone.
 
For someone that's "addicted to the internet" it seems as if you haven't actually followed through on anything...
 
I mean no disrespect but, it's kind of shocking to me that you wouldn't follow through.
 
Considering recent trends/lawsuits especially in regards to the military either, you'd be back in or, you'd be rich...Thus, not needing to live on the streets at all.